Today was a lonely day..... very lonely... and today I realized all the doors I have closed so far.... opening them is not an easy task now..... yet I kept pondering over what I sud have done n wat I sud not have..... I always valued my principles - I thought, holding on to them was all I needed to do.. I never realized no body knows your principles unless you show off a bit.
I remembered a dialogue from Pride and Prejudice, where Mr. Darcy had said "I had been a selfish being all my life. As a child I was given good principles but was left to follow them in pride and conceit". I recognize myself with him here. I had been a selfish being indeed! Actually I never feel lonely, somehow I manage to engage myself in some or the other stupid stuff but today.... I felt the vacuum. I realized just because I don't feel lonely - others do. And I had never thought of it before.I should me more considerate next time. I had nobody to call, because the limited people I call were all busy today. I should expand my calling horizon too.
We are always complaining about flowing time... the fast pace.... and today as if the clock had stopped ticking at all... he was very lazy today. I have realized wat it feels like if time stretches it self and expands with every milliseconds to count....
I watched 3 movies- 1 Korean, 1 Telegu and 1English... yet the clock was looking at me and laughing. And I was wondering if this day will end at all...
I had a lot of time to THINK.... I thoght over myself.... then little bit more on myself... then on various other things....
Here it is still keeping me awake.... I feel so jobless... as if I am suppose to do something. Like some real work. something for betterment of society... something like a payback. I feel so raged at the social issues that I feel I must do something.... But do I have the power to do anything?
They say 'The pen is mightier than the sword' but is it really??
Then can I kill any Evil with my Sword?
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